One day I'll be exactly the person that I want to be

In my mind 

In a future five years from now 

I'm 120 pounds 

And I never get hungover 

Because I will be the picture of discipline 

Never minding what state I'm in 

And I will be someone I admire 

And it's funny how I imagined that I would be that person now 

But it does not seem to have happened 

Maybe I've just forgotten how to see 

That I'm not exactly the person that I thought I'd be 

And in my mind 

In the faraway here and now 

I've become in control somehow 

And I never lose my wallet 

Because I will be the picture of discipline 

Never fucking up anything 

And I'll be a good defensive driver 

And it's funny how I imagined that I would be that person now 

But it does not seem to have happened 

Maybe I've just forgotten how to see 

That I'll never be the person that I thought I'd be 

And in my mind 

When I'm old, I am beautiful 

Planting tulips and vegetables 

Which I will mindfully watch over 

Not like me, now 

I'm so busy with everything 

That I don't look at anything 

But I'm sure I'll look when I am older 

And it's funny how I imagine that I could be that person now 

But that's not what I want, if that's what I wanted then I'd be giving up somehow 

How strange to see that I don't want to be the person that I want to be 

And in my mind 

I imagine so many things 

Things that aren't really happening 

And when they put me in the ground, I'll start pounding the lid 

Saying "I haven't finished yet – 

I still have a tattoo to get 

That says 'I'm living in the moment'." 

And it's funny how I imagined that I could win this winless fight 

But maybe it isn't all that funny that I've been fighting all my life 

But maybe I have to think it's funny if I wanna live before I die 

And maybe it's funniest of all to think I'll die before I actually see 

That I am exactly the person that I want to be 

Fuck yes 

I am exactly the person that I want to be